"So he betrayed you again?"

I made the appointment and was really looking forward to it. I saw it as my escape, the only thing that was standing in between me and my freedom from the hell of my marriage.

We went to the appointment in the same car, with Charlie driving. We did not talk. We did not even look at each other.

Charlie started to ask me questions about our relationship. I told him I was not interested in discussing it. He simply replied that he was just trying to get a handle on where my thoughts were. I told him that we would discuss it at our appointment with our counsellor.

When we pulled up Charlie went to the back seat of the car and pulled out an envelope from beneath the seat. I had no idea what it was, nor did I care.

We were greeted at the front door by Max, our counsellor. He is a funny little man, borderline eccentric I think is probably a little far fetched, but I can't quite find the right words to describe him.

He is exceptionally talented in psychology and both Charlie and I have alot of faith in him. Max is semi retired and works 2 half days a week. Your first appointment with Max is where he decides whether or not he wants to work with you. Initially he did not want to work with us because Charlie was not showing enough remorse in his eyes and did not see his wrong doings as such. But, in that same appointment Max had managed to reduce Charlie to tears and made him realise the severity of the issues at hand.

So we got down to business.

Max asked Charlie if what I had said on the phone when I made the appointment was true, that we had to attend another session so I could leave my marriage. Charlie said that he did say that but it was only partially true. Max stated "Well I am glad that that is not the case because I would have sent you out now."

Max also stated that last time he saw us I was in a similar state of distress, so he asked as to how I had managed to hold it together for so long if things had not changed.

Charlie told Max that things were going great since our last appointment and that he had moved back into our house and did not understand why we had gone off the rails and were back where we were.

Charlie told Max that one of the main problems was my belief that Charlie did not spend enough quality time with me. Charlie bent down and produced his folder and a typed list of things we had done together since the beginning of the new year. It was an extensive list and included lots of different places and activities that we had done together. Charlie offered me a copy which I declined.

Max took one, but before reading it clearly stated that if this was not the issue that I perceived as the problem then it did not hold any bearing. Max read it and commented on how extensive the list was.

He then asked me what my take on it was.

I told Max that one of the issues was that he did not spend time with me on a regular basis, but that it was not the main reason I wanted out of my marriage.

I told him about four days in February where Charlie had let me down and gave some examples of why I felt the way I did.

I told him about the phone call Charlie made from his mobile to his mother, despite our agreement that Charlie not call from his mobile, the one where he was pulled over and fined by the police, the phone call that he did not tell me about, and the fine that he hid from me as well.

I told Max about the time he turned up at home after work early because he 'just wanted to be with me'. I told Max how he wanted me to jump into bed with him for a cuddle, and so we did. Nothing more happened, it was just beautiful cuddles with fun giggles, the adorable warm intimate hugs without sex that are simply divine.

I told Max how he suddenly got out of bed and started to get dressed. When I asked Charlie what he was doing he told me he had a meeting to go to. And when I questioned "What meeting?", how Charlie told me he had taken on board another sporting committee membership without discussing this with me.

I told Max about the emails I had found in our shared inbox where he had once again committed to coaching football without telling me.

Max sat there for a short time absorbing the details I had given him, and summed it up perfectly with five words.

"So he betrayed you again?"

I replied "Yes".